Fail, fail, FAILURE!
That’s what I kept saying to myself last week as I was frantically working to do way too many things at once, and failing to be very successful at any of them. Tears were beginning to sting my eyes and roll down my cheeks. Once again, I was running late with dinner. Once again, I hadn’t gotten to the dishes at all during the day and they were piling high. Once again, I hadn’t gotten through all of the lessons I’d planned for the day, or all of the items on my never ending to-do list. Once again, I’d lost my cool and yelled at the kids. Failure!
Then God whispered something in my ear. As clear as day I heard in my head, “That is not your name.” Wow! God definitely got my attention there as that sank in. When God is sitting up there in Heaven looking down at me He’s not thinking, “Man, what a failure that Heather is! She can’t seem to get anything right!” Nope, if I hear that, that’s not God speaking. That’s the father of lies. That’s Satan trying to call me out by my imperfections.
Why is it that when Satan whispers in my ear and reminds me of my struggles it’s so easy to lean in and listen? It’s so easy to take to heart those lies he tries to fill us with. The lies that tell us if we don’t mark things off our list, we have done nothing. The lies that tell us that if we don’t accomplish obvious, tangible things we aren’t worthy. The lies that tell us that if we don’t meet the world’s definition of success, we are failures, undeserving of love or appreciation.
Yet somehow it can be so hard to believe the words that God whispers in our ear. His words telling us that we are loved, that we are holy, that we are HIS, just the way we are seem so unreal. That we don’t have to be this, that, or the other to be ‘good enough’ for God to love us. I love the way Mercy Me puts it in their song Greater, “There’ll be days I lose the battle, Grace says that it doesn’t matter, Cause the cross already won the war…I am learning to run freely, Understanding just how he sees me, And it makes me love him more and more.”
This is seriously one of my favorite songs right now. If you haven’t heard this song before, you NEED to listen to it. Such beautiful words that speak God’s love to us. This song always seems to come on when I’m hitting that low point, starting to listen to Satan’s lies. Hearing the Truth that God “Calls me redeemed” speaks to my heart (and usually leaves me with tears of healing and joy). Because here is the thing, we aren’t enough. Not on our own. We can never be ‘good enough’ to earn God’s love, because he is perfect and we are not. We are humans and He made humans imperfect. If He made us perfect, we would have no need for God, or His love, or His redeeming grace. We would have no need for God’s strength if we were strong enough to do and handle it all on our own. Instead, God made us imperfect humans, in need of His help and redemption.
Out of curiosity I looked up the meaning of ‘redeemed’ and here is one definition according to dictionary.com, “
Do you hear that voice? The one that’s constantly trying to remind you of your every mistake as misstep? The one that loves to rehash your old sins and call you a failure? Turn things around and call him out! Tell Satan to shut his mouth, because you are a new creation in Christ! You are not your old, bad choices, nor are you the failings of each day. You are not the sum total of your mistakes and flops. You are NOT a failure. You have been redeemed! “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! “(2 Corinthians 5:17 NLT)